So as of late plans for the future have been the number one thing on my mind. Numerous people are settling down, getting married, engaged, and planning for the next chapter of their education, and I am no exception.
With two years of undergrad done, it is almost time to start graduate school entrance exams and applying to school. It's crazy to think that all of that is just around the corner, when I feel like I just finished that whole process.
With all of this planning I feel myself getting extremely excited for what the future holds and all that will come after graduate school. A wedding, a family, a new home. That's a lot of changes, but it's a lot of excitement too. For the first time I can actually begin to picture my life past school. I can actually see myself in the wedding dress. Women always say that they've been planning their wedding and all the details since they were kids. They had envisioned that dress and knew exactly which dress was right when they tried it on. Previously I could never envision the white dress or me walking down the aisle. I always thought maybe that was a sign that I wasn't going to get married or find the one. But that seems to be changing and I'm glad I no longer feel doomed to be a single old lady.
Now onto the real dilemma. Present versus future. With all the excitement and tentative planning I feel the need to draw myself back to reality. There are a lot of what-ifs still up in the air and curve balls that could be thrown my way. People live by a lot of different mottos. Some believe that you should live each day as it comes because tomorrow isn't guaranteed. In fact, the entire day isn't even guaranteed. However, if one lives each day as it comes, how can you be prepared for what lies ahead. I find its a struggle to find the balance between living each day as it comes and in the moment, but while also making decisions that are best for what you currently want to achieve in your life. Things will change and nothing is guaranteed, but I feel that planning is the best way to navigate the future. A well planned out trip allows you to live each day and moment to its fullest and to enjoy the journey. But at what time do you transition from your planning and live?
I may never know the answer. Or perhaps when I do, I'll be well settled into my wrinkles with grandchildren. Here's to finding the balance in planning and living, to being excited about future possibilities, and to enjoying the present.
